@lly's Haven

I am tolerating, keeping quiet. Patience is running out. Everyone has a temper, so do I! When I keep quiet doesn't mean I allow people out there to take advantage and throw their temper and weight at me. I am just patient and tolerant. Don't push yourself too far in and overstep the boundary. When I blow up, I BLOW! The reason why I keep quiet, not because I am good tempered but it's because I can't control my temper. It's uncontrollable! But that's where maturity steps in, letting go and not blowing up because of your personal frustrations and anger. I don't believe in venting frustrations on the people around you unless they are the very reasons who frustrated you. That's childishness and it puts people off!

Hebrews 12 V1 - Therefore since we also have such a large cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin that so easily ensnares us, and run with endurance the race that lies before us, V2 - keeping our eyes on Jesus, the source and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that lay before Him endured a cross and despised the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of God's throne. V3 - For consider Him who endured such hostility from sinners against Himself, so that you won't grow weary and lose heart. V4 - In struggling against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. V5 - And you have forgotten the exhortation that addresses you as sons: My son, do not take the Lord's discipline lightly, or faint when you are reproved by Him; V6 - for the Lord disciplines the one He loves, and punishes every son whom He receives. V7 - Endure it as discipline: God is dealing with you as sons. For what son is there whom a father doe...

1 Timothy 4 V12 - Don't let anyone think less of you because you are young. Be an example to all believers in what you teach, in the way you live, in your love, your faith, and your purity. V13 - Until I get there, focus on reading the Scriptures to the church, encouraging the believers, and teaching them. V14 - Do not neglect the spiritual gift you received through the prophecies spoken to you when the elders of the church laid their hands on you. V15 - Give your complete attention to these matters. Throw yourself into your tasks so that everyone will see your progress. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Isaiah 44:22 I have swept away your sins like the morning mists. I have scattered your offenses like the clouds. Oh, return to me, for I have paid the price to set you free." ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My Prayer: Lord, please help me to be the pers...

Habakkuk 2 v2 - Write the Vision and make it plain on tablets, that he may run who reads it v3 - For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will SURELY come, it will not tarry.

The only way to keep you going in your walk with God, is the RHEMA word. Embrace the Word, Meditate on the Word, and Pray about the Word. That's the opposite of "Don't curse/nurse/rehearse the hurt." Don't know why. But I just felt led to remember the verses that God has for me. Someone said very seriously to me last night, "Don't be overly smart. Not every body likes it. You can offend people." He was so dead serious, I was intimidated and felt guilty. Smart without tactfulness = brainless Smart with tactfulness = wisdom And I want wisdom, I don't want to be dumbo but I am not definitely not a bimbo. haha... RHEMA: Isaiah 42 V.6 - I, the Lord, have called You in righteousness, And will hold your hand; I will keep You and give You as a covenant to the people. As a light to the Gentiles, V.7 - To open blind eyes, To bring prisoners from the prison, Those who sit in darkness from the prison house. Isaiah 43 V.1b - "Fear not, for I have rede...

There are many distractions nowadays, not only for me but for many as well. It's a time of warfare, not against flesh and blood but against the principality of this place. The devil is not happy with what we are doing as a "family", great miracles are going to happen. If not he won't be trying to hard to get us all distracted. I am distracted by anger, self-esteem and insecurity. Lord, I place my confidence and hope in You. As for the past, the word is self-explanatory. Past cannot affect anyone unless we allow it to haunt us and cripple our progression in life. We should learn to take things in stride, life is not smooth-going. We all need to learn and accept the FACT that there are situations/circumstances that doesn't favor us, but our responses/reactions will show our maturity and attitude towards life. Easier said than done, but with God, all things are possible. Really need to exchange our burdens and yoke with God's burdens and yoke for they are light. ...

I have tough decisions to make this year. One has to do with my spiritual life and the other has to do with my career. I don't mind and I am still praying. I felt that God has calling me into the teaching profession years before, but I ran away because I felt that I don't have the abilities or gifts to teach. Whatever I studied, I just study for the sake of passing. I don't exactly remembered what I have studied. You ask me to guide I can but not teach. I don't have the confidence. Another reason that stopped me was because of the bond by NIE. Next, the education system sucks! I hate the education system here. I have never really liked the education system here. Students are so competitive and results are what they care about. There's simply no EQ. Well, at least this is so from what I have observed. This may not be necessary true for all. I'd love to make an impact in the lives of the youths which I always wanted to but no courage. Anyway, even if I want to go ...

The Message Ephesians 3:20 God can do anything, you know - far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Complain shows that you are a victim of life.... You have only one life, enjoy it! ---- Dr. Phil Pringles ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Serving is the key to destiny.... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I had a meeting with one the trainers and his assistant. I really like this trainer alot, he's an American. A very dynamic guy, straightforward, truthful, intelligent, sharp, analytical. But I guess all these came with experience. He is like a fatherly figure, and I like him alot though he can be lou...

I packed my room on Monday till the wee hours of the morning about 3+am. I slept around 4am after bathing. Woke up to day at 1030am but ly on my bed till 1130am and packed my room alittle again till about 12+pm. Relax till 1230pm and got out of my house to meet up an old friend of mine, a brother. Awkwardly, we looked for a place for lunch at Serangoon Gardens. Awkwardly because we almost got together a few years back. But I wasn't ready and I felt he wasn't ready too because the focus and foundation is round. Anyway, we came back home (to my place) at about 2pm and started to do "healing and praying" for my com. Gosh! My com is now healed after most 8.5hrs of going through dianogsis, X-ray and then operation. Thank God I prayed! My friend reformatted my hard disk after we back up some of the important files. Until we finally have the com recuperated, I realised I forgot to back up emails!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lo and behold, my address book and emails were found...

ROBERT JASTROW , ASTROPHYSICIST For the scientist who has lived by his faith in the power of reason, the story ends like a bad dream. He has scaled the mountains of ignorance; he is about to conquer the highest peak; as he pulls himself over the final rock, he is greeted by a band of theologians who have been sitting there for centuries . (Robert Jastrow, God and the Astronomers, W.W. Norton, New York, 1978, p. 116) I think the one in bold italics is really funny. This is exactly my sentiments. Why do all the scientists and atheists try to hard to put in resources just to prove themselves? The waste of time and efforts and money!!! Things are simple as it is, no complications, no confusion, no strife. FRANK TIPLER , MATHEMATICIAN & PHYSICIST When I began my career as a cosmologist some twenty years ago, I was a convinced atheist. I never in my wildest dreams imagined that one day I would be writing a book purporting to show that the central claims of Judeo-Christian theology are in...

The Message 1 God, investigate my life; get all the facts firsthand. 2 I'm an open book to you; even from a distance, you know what I'm thinking. 3 You know when I leave and when I get back; I'm never out of your sight. 4 You know everything I'm going to say before I start the first sentence. 5 I look behind me and you're there, then up ahead and you're there, too - your reassuring presence, coming and going. 6 This is too much, too wonderful - I can't take it all in! Good News Translation 1 Lord, you have examined me and you know me. 2 You know everything I do; from far away you understand all my thoughts. 3 You see me, whether I am working or resting; you know all my actions. 4 Even before I speak, you already know what I will say. 5 You are all around me on every side; you protect me with your power. 6 Your knowledge of me is too deep; it is beyond my understanding.

V1 Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord shines over you. V2 For look, darkness covers the earth,and total darkness the peoples;but the Lord will shine over you,and His glory will appear over you. V3 Nations will come to your light,and kings to the brightness of your radiance.

Imagine you're in London's Heathrow Airport. While you're waitingfor your flight, you notice a kiosk selling cookies. You buy a box,put them in your traveling bag and then you patiently search foran available seat so you can sit down and enjoy your cookies. Finally you find a seat next to a gentleman. You reach down intoyour traveling bag and pull out your box of cookies.As you do so, you notice that the gentleman starts watching youintensely. He stares as you open the box and his eyes follow your hand as you pick up the cookie and bring it to your mouth.Just then he reaches over and takes one of your cookies fromthe box, and eats it! You're more than a little surprised at this.Actually, you're at a loss for words. Not only does he take one cookie, but also alternates with you. For every one cookie you take, he takes one. Now, what's your immediate impression of this guy? Crazy? Greedy?He's got some nerve! Can you imagine the words you might use to describe ...

My heart is heavy. I am so very sad. For whatsoever reasons. Friends - backslided and unsaved... so sad for them and sad that I can't be of help or impact. Don't know what to say or do. I stopped making friends since my poly years. I guess inside of me, something died subconsciously. Not that I want to, I don't seem to keep friendships. To me it's something that can be do without though it's a bonus to have. Life - going nowhere. Perhaps in my own eyes. In God's eyes I am going somewhere which I cannot see with my own eyes CG - secret because some of you know my blog! haha... Church - very blessed to be in this family for 5 years liao.. Thank God.. Career - sigh..... Love - ???? Family - ............................................................................... actually it's not that bad lah.. just need to get out of the shadow. So that's my life..... How sad can it get? It's not a tragedy definitely compared to others in the world who surv...

Lord, it's You that leads me to Your place of comfort And it's You who takes my hand You lead me to still waters And it's You who restores my soul for You are with me And it's You Only You are worthy

My little bro and myself though he's not that little anymore. He has his own mind now and makes decision on his own. But thank God, we are still close and he still shares what's going on in his life. Sometimes it's comforting to know that I can still can communicate with a male. But of course, I've known him for 21 years, what's there that we can' talk about? I guess I have to manage my expectation when it comes to communicating with people. Don't we look alike? hehe....

BACK TO THE START, MY HEART IS HEAVY FEELS LIKE IT'S TIME, TO DREAM AGAIN I SEE THE CLOUDS, AND YES I'M READY TO DANCE UPON THIS BARREN LAND HOPE IN MY HANDS I need to believe badly that all things are possible with God. It's possible to forgive for the decisions I have made and have not made for the past few years. I need to forgive myself for the things I have failed, need to forgive myself and stop blaming myself that things didn't happen the way I want to. Especially in the areas of outreach and submission to God and His authority. New Mind Renewed thoughts, perceiving through the mind of Christ instead of my own humanly thoughts. Analyse and think through my daily life or situations with my own strength and looking at my own incapabilities. New Heart I need to leave the past behind, forget the past, forgive the past, forgive myself for wasting time and lamenting everything is too late to do anything for God. Nothing is too late in God's timing and I need to bel...

Our last day in Jurong West St 91 I only had time to upload these pictures that I took on 4th December 2005. This is our last day in our church premise but also many things to do. It was water baptism for Terence and Vanessa, then it was birthday celebration for Issac and S.W. (if you know what this means, hehe.. mean)

Christmas The word for Christmas in late Old English is Cristes Maesse, the Mass of Christ, first found in 1038, and Cristes-messe, in 1131. Merry X'mas to all my friends out there, Christians and non-Christians! To both different groups because we celebrate this season with joy and exchanging of gifts for known or unknown origin of Christmas. This is the day that God has given His only Son Jesus Christ, so that also explains the reason why we are into the season of giving and exchanging. God exchanged His Son for our lives, so have exchange any gift to Him? It's ironic, isn't it? How some doesn't believe in Jesus Christ, yet they believed He was birth forth or believed there's such a day as Christmas on 25th December? ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Anyhow, I am glad most or all respect this day. And this has been a blessed season for me because I never expected to receive so many presents especially f...

But whoever keeps His word, truly the love of God is perfected in him. By this we know that we are in Him. 1 John 2:5 Is love really so simple as that? I guess so, with God. But why do I still struggle to receive, accept and to give love? What I once have, I lost it. To have it again, cost too much to part with it again. It will be double the pain. Jesus gave his life, only one life but he gave it to gain eternal life and to give all eternal life. Good for Him! I have one life, but I hold onto it too much. Bible says, what you hold onto so dearly, you will lose it. It's true. Sometimes you are so focused, that you forget to enjoy the things, people and environments around you. So there you go, life wasted to achieve 1 goal, be it fun, enjoyment, luxury, success, fame, honor or riches. When you could have gained friendships, love and life to the fullest. True friendships, love and 1 life that is full of life's riches. So back to the question - Are you running from love? True lov...