@lly's Haven

There are many distractions nowadays, not only for me but for many as well. It's a time of warfare, not against flesh and blood but against the principality of this place. The devil is not happy with what we are doing as a "family", great miracles are going to happen. If not he won't be trying to hard to get us all distracted. I am distracted by anger, self-esteem and insecurity. Lord, I place my confidence and hope in You. As for the past, the word is self-explanatory. Past cannot affect anyone unless we allow it to haunt us and cripple our progression in life. We should learn to take things in stride, life is not smooth-going. We all need to learn and accept the FACT that there are situations/circumstances that doesn't favor us, but our responses/reactions will show our maturity and attitude towards life. Easier said than done, but with God, all things are possible. Really need to exchange our burdens and yoke with God's burdens and yoke for they are light. ...

I have tough decisions to make this year. One has to do with my spiritual life and the other has to do with my career. I don't mind and I am still praying. I felt that God has calling me into the teaching profession years before, but I ran away because I felt that I don't have the abilities or gifts to teach. Whatever I studied, I just study for the sake of passing. I don't exactly remembered what I have studied. You ask me to guide I can but not teach. I don't have the confidence. Another reason that stopped me was because of the bond by NIE. Next, the education system sucks! I hate the education system here. I have never really liked the education system here. Students are so competitive and results are what they care about. There's simply no EQ. Well, at least this is so from what I have observed. This may not be necessary true for all. I'd love to make an impact in the lives of the youths which I always wanted to but no courage. Anyway, even if I want to go ...

The Message Ephesians 3:20 God can do anything, you know - far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Complain shows that you are a victim of life.... You have only one life, enjoy it! ---- Dr. Phil Pringles ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Serving is the key to destiny.... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I had a meeting with one the trainers and his assistant. I really like this trainer alot, he's an American. A very dynamic guy, straightforward, truthful, intelligent, sharp, analytical. But I guess all these came with experience. He is like a fatherly figure, and I like him alot though he can be lou...

I packed my room on Monday till the wee hours of the morning about 3+am. I slept around 4am after bathing. Woke up to day at 1030am but ly on my bed till 1130am and packed my room alittle again till about 12+pm. Relax till 1230pm and got out of my house to meet up an old friend of mine, a brother. Awkwardly, we looked for a place for lunch at Serangoon Gardens. Awkwardly because we almost got together a few years back. But I wasn't ready and I felt he wasn't ready too because the focus and foundation is round. Anyway, we came back home (to my place) at about 2pm and started to do "healing and praying" for my com. Gosh! My com is now healed after most 8.5hrs of going through dianogsis, X-ray and then operation. Thank God I prayed! My friend reformatted my hard disk after we back up some of the important files. Until we finally have the com recuperated, I realised I forgot to back up emails!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lo and behold, my address book and emails were found...

ROBERT JASTROW , ASTROPHYSICIST For the scientist who has lived by his faith in the power of reason, the story ends like a bad dream. He has scaled the mountains of ignorance; he is about to conquer the highest peak; as he pulls himself over the final rock, he is greeted by a band of theologians who have been sitting there for centuries . (Robert Jastrow, God and the Astronomers, W.W. Norton, New York, 1978, p. 116) I think the one in bold italics is really funny. This is exactly my sentiments. Why do all the scientists and atheists try to hard to put in resources just to prove themselves? The waste of time and efforts and money!!! Things are simple as it is, no complications, no confusion, no strife. FRANK TIPLER , MATHEMATICIAN & PHYSICIST When I began my career as a cosmologist some twenty years ago, I was a convinced atheist. I never in my wildest dreams imagined that one day I would be writing a book purporting to show that the central claims of Judeo-Christian theology are in...

The Message 1 God, investigate my life; get all the facts firsthand. 2 I'm an open book to you; even from a distance, you know what I'm thinking. 3 You know when I leave and when I get back; I'm never out of your sight. 4 You know everything I'm going to say before I start the first sentence. 5 I look behind me and you're there, then up ahead and you're there, too - your reassuring presence, coming and going. 6 This is too much, too wonderful - I can't take it all in! Good News Translation 1 Lord, you have examined me and you know me. 2 You know everything I do; from far away you understand all my thoughts. 3 You see me, whether I am working or resting; you know all my actions. 4 Even before I speak, you already know what I will say. 5 You are all around me on every side; you protect me with your power. 6 Your knowledge of me is too deep; it is beyond my understanding.

V1 Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord shines over you. V2 For look, darkness covers the earth,and total darkness the peoples;but the Lord will shine over you,and His glory will appear over you. V3 Nations will come to your light,and kings to the brightness of your radiance.

Imagine you're in London's Heathrow Airport. While you're waitingfor your flight, you notice a kiosk selling cookies. You buy a box,put them in your traveling bag and then you patiently search foran available seat so you can sit down and enjoy your cookies. Finally you find a seat next to a gentleman. You reach down intoyour traveling bag and pull out your box of cookies.As you do so, you notice that the gentleman starts watching youintensely. He stares as you open the box and his eyes follow your hand as you pick up the cookie and bring it to your mouth.Just then he reaches over and takes one of your cookies fromthe box, and eats it! You're more than a little surprised at this.Actually, you're at a loss for words. Not only does he take one cookie, but also alternates with you. For every one cookie you take, he takes one. Now, what's your immediate impression of this guy? Crazy? Greedy?He's got some nerve! Can you imagine the words you might use to describe ...

My heart is heavy. I am so very sad. For whatsoever reasons. Friends - backslided and unsaved... so sad for them and sad that I can't be of help or impact. Don't know what to say or do. I stopped making friends since my poly years. I guess inside of me, something died subconsciously. Not that I want to, I don't seem to keep friendships. To me it's something that can be do without though it's a bonus to have. Life - going nowhere. Perhaps in my own eyes. In God's eyes I am going somewhere which I cannot see with my own eyes CG - secret because some of you know my blog! haha... Church - very blessed to be in this family for 5 years liao.. Thank God.. Career - sigh..... Love - ???? Family - ............................................................................... actually it's not that bad lah.. just need to get out of the shadow. So that's my life..... How sad can it get? It's not a tragedy definitely compared to others in the world who surv...

Lord, it's You that leads me to Your place of comfort And it's You who takes my hand You lead me to still waters And it's You who restores my soul for You are with me And it's You Only You are worthy

My little bro and myself though he's not that little anymore. He has his own mind now and makes decision on his own. But thank God, we are still close and he still shares what's going on in his life. Sometimes it's comforting to know that I can still can communicate with a male. But of course, I've known him for 21 years, what's there that we can' talk about? I guess I have to manage my expectation when it comes to communicating with people. Don't we look alike? hehe....

BACK TO THE START, MY HEART IS HEAVY FEELS LIKE IT'S TIME, TO DREAM AGAIN I SEE THE CLOUDS, AND YES I'M READY TO DANCE UPON THIS BARREN LAND HOPE IN MY HANDS I need to believe badly that all things are possible with God. It's possible to forgive for the decisions I have made and have not made for the past few years. I need to forgive myself for the things I have failed, need to forgive myself and stop blaming myself that things didn't happen the way I want to. Especially in the areas of outreach and submission to God and His authority. New Mind Renewed thoughts, perceiving through the mind of Christ instead of my own humanly thoughts. Analyse and think through my daily life or situations with my own strength and looking at my own incapabilities. New Heart I need to leave the past behind, forget the past, forgive the past, forgive myself for wasting time and lamenting everything is too late to do anything for God. Nothing is too late in God's timing and I need to bel...