@lly's Haven

Loneliness can be a scary thing... I probably don't have many close friends to start with, not many shoulders I trust and lean on. The only female close friend I have is a non Christian and married. The other close friend I have is a male and married. Now it's gotten complicated because he's legally married but not customary. Nevertheless, I know it's not right. Sadly, I have friends in church but none I can really share and talk to. Seem like Christians have more burden to carry than non-Christians. I don't want to be another baggage to anyone. In fact, more than often, I find myself even more lonely in church than out of church. Sad but it's the truth. Family problems can drive me to a corner. I don't receive love from my own family, I don't know how to receive love from anywhere else. I also don't trust and believe that others will love me. To me, love is a fickle commodity. It can be here and it can disappear. It's not trust...

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I heard, that your settled down. That you, found a girl and your married now. I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you. Old friend, why are you so shy? It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie. I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited. But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it. I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded, That for me, it isn't over. Nevermind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best, for you too. Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:- "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead" Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah. You'd know, how the time flies. Only yesterday, was the time of our lives. We were born and raised in a summery haze. Bound by the surprise of our glory days. Adele Someone Like You lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/adele-someone-li...

希望: 可以不理知　　  可以自私 為所欲為 可以把時間到專 敢敢把愛情搶回來, 即使已婚

Why have I become who I am today? Pastors will say, " You have a choice who you want to become." I will say, "I am up to my limits, and pushed far beyond what I can bear. There's no love, no concern, no positive words, nothing. There's nowhere to replenish the lack I have within my emotions. I need to defend myself." I do not like the present self, but I am to my wits' end. Nothing I do is ever enough, and everything is about money. Why don't I pay rent then and pretend to be strangers? I will be happy to be treated like a stranger and stop bothering me. In fact, they should think why have I treated them the way I did.