@lly's Haven

Definitely not 3 wise men. But it was 3 men I dreamt last night. A childhood sweetheart and 2 others whom I like. Strange dreams. Seemed like I was kidnapped by the guitarist, quarrelled with the intellect, saved by "sweetheart". Totally strange dreams. The first time I had a dream in which I had been kissed was during Sec 2 or 3 and last night was the 2nd time. Kissed by the kidnapper.. haha pengz... Spoke with the intellect 2 days ago. Was quite surprised with the things he shared and told me about. He even prayed for me. But I really dun want to be moved in the heart so easily, I want to be transformed and changed by God first. I don't want to be distracted with the person who looked for him. I want to choose to trust God and commit my emotions to Him. God, please help me to just "throw" my emotions to anyone who is good and intellectual. I want a godly man, not Tom/Dick/Harry!

Should I venture out, is it really God who's opening a new door for me? I don't wish to make a decision out of my flesh. But I want to make the right decision that is pleasing to God and in God's timing. I don't want to be an irresponsible person leaving "shit" for others to clear up. I really need to make the training class a success. At least, before I really decide to leave. I am stressed and I need am miracle. I cannot take it anymore.