@lly's Haven

Why have I become who I am today? Pastors will say, " You have a choice who you want to become." I will say, "I am up to my limits, and pushed far beyond what I can bear. There's no love, no concern, no positive words, nothing. There's nowhere to replenish the lack I have within my emotions. I need to defend myself." I do not like the present self, but I am to my wits' end. Nothing I do is ever enough, and everything is about money. Why don't I pay rent then and pretend to be strangers? I will be happy to be treated like a stranger and stop bothering me. In fact, they should think why have I treated them the way I did.

My parents came for service that day and got themselves a good treat watching the funniest drama for that week. My hair stood most of the time because of one very effeminate recruit in the batch. Each buttock shake and each whine gives me the chill right down to my bones. I cannot stand guys who are so girlish. My, I don't think I am that girlish myself! haha... After service, we had a buffet lunch and a short while of entertainment. Took a pix at the MRT with my parents. Sad, my bro didn't join us. He simply hates my church! Haiz... My complexion has been quite dry recently, makes me look much older than usual. I will say my dad has aged alot, my mum still looks young though! :> After lunch, we went on our separate ways as I have a gathering with my colleagues for bonding as well as to celebrate birthday. Took quite a number of pictures but there is one particular picture that I think is rather interesting. Haha, do we look like a happy family? Anyway, that's my colle...

I was so tired on Sunday that unknowingly, I slept from 6pm till this morning 830am. More than 12 hrs! Missed my dinner too. Quickly packed my bag to get ready for gym at Fitness First, The Cathay. This is the first time I am going gym with my cell members, and mind you, 2 are aunties and there were only 2 young persons including myself. The machines are quite good but seems like more suitable for bigger size people than me. But the good thing is that drinks and cups are provided. They have soft drinks and hot drinks - with calories indicated. Haha... To drink coke, I have to think thrice! 41 Calories, I think I haven't burnt that much yet for the first 10 min! I think we worked out for about an hour plus. After which, I met my family (aunts, uncles, cousins, grandma) for lunch at Plaza Singapura for Jap food. I ordered Tempura Chawanmushi Set. Haiz.... though I didn't drink coke, but with this set, I may have gained thousands of calories! Not that I am very particular, if I do...