@lly's Haven

I badly want my calling and badly want to fulfill it. But as the bible says, "Be faithful in little and more will be added unto you." I haven't really been able to love those around, those that God has placed around me. Colleagues, friends, people, etc. This is one of the simplest commandment but a very emotional one. It takes determination, effort, patience and capacity to LOVE. We all put on our masks. WHY? Afraid of offending others and losing their friendships? Or because of inferiority? Or insecurity.. afraid that others will be better than you? Sigh... Am I putting on a mask? To a certain extend I guess. You can be transparent but not naked. Of course, you can be yourself when you are before God, naked. Adam and Eve had such intimacy because they were "naked", unpretentious until they fell. Trying to hide themselves behind bushes. I really don't want to waste my life, trying to search for my calling when it is before me. Every day of my life is a stepp...

There is none I desire (wonder if it's true) There is none I look to There is none I can depend on There is none who can fill me There is none who loves me as You do There is none who knows me as I am Except for the Lord In His mercy and grace What will I do without Him? There is none who has desired There is none who has looked There is none who has depended I have yet to stretch out my hands for others I have yet to love others as myself I have yet to know others What have I done for those around me? In my abilities and strengths I have not done anything (yet) Who do I look to? Myself Who do I seek after? Myself Who do I depend on? Myself No wonder, I need more of the Lord. L-ove O-ways R-emember D-others

It was so shiok! I slept from 1230pm to 130pm at the comfy sofa in NutriHarvest. I didn't know I was that tired. I was only thinking of a short nap. I need a break from work, need a holiday, need sleep, need to pray, need to do almost everything necessary in life. NEED--- Never Ending Entertaining Desires. haha... Humans are like that... Rest more than they work.. well at least that's how most people live. Why can't we be a little more focused? Why don't we love God alittle more? Where's the spirit of Paul? Disciples of Christ shouldn't be that weak. Sigh... What has gone wrong, God? Are we too focused on our emotions, problems, etc? Maybe so... What the heck is wrong with us today? Too comfortable in life till we can't accept a little setback or emotional upheaval? Heck... We have to really spend time with God. Not just pray, but really fellowship. Sigh.. Fellowship... I missed fellowshipping with God. The last that I really fellowshipped with God was when ...

Your Personality Profile You are nurturing, kind, and lucky. Like mother nature, you want to help everyone. You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive. A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker. You are good natured and people enjoy your company. You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you. The World's Shortest Personality Test You Are 19 Years Old Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. What Age Do You Act?...