@lly's Haven

hmmmmm Got a not-very-good news an hr ago.... that a friend's mum passed away.... I have been concerned in my heart but never really did anything. Except to visit and pray for her whenever my other friends plan a visitation. I had sensed that her mum may not make it through, and I was burdened. I was very concerned with her salvation because I know that's the heart of my friend. Every believer will want their loved ones to be saved so that they can gather together in the Father's house to rejoice and be reunited. I don't think that we haven't done enough though I will say sometimes people are plain passive. Will a little more urgency help? I think God has His plans. Even if we do passionately share with her mum, and do we possible can, it's still free will. In the past, I'd have felt helpless and condemn myself, feel that why can't I do something for these people? But through the years as a Christian, I have learnt that it's not me who changes or MAK...

Only You can take away the loneliness of hearts The weariness of the body The draining away of emotions Only You can fill the emptiness of the nights The times of uncertainties The periods of difficulties Only You can give us the purpose of life The vision to stay focus The dreams to motivate Only You know us in the deepest core of our being Our strengths and weaknesses Our potential awaiting to be explored and released That's why we need You....

I kept listening the korean worship song-Born to be love. I just can't help but really felt so loved by the Lord. I don't know why, I just feel so much listening to this song. It's so simple and short but speaks so much. We are all created to be loved - it was also for this simple reason why God created Man. So that we can fellowship with, walk side by side with him with no boundary, to have constant contact with Him and by physically hugged by Him. I can't imagine how life would be like if not for sin which has entered. Will we be holding His hands at this moment? I don't know why... since CNY's eve I have been feeling kind of alone. Too much free time at hand and I have been feeling bored. I wondered to myself, don't I have friends? I do, but I guess I just don't want to intrude. I have been an introvert since young and often felt that I am an intruder unless someone invites or calls me to join them. I don't even organise my own birthday except for...

Dang shin eun, sarang bat gi-wi-han-te-oh-nan saram ~You were born to be loved, Dang shin eh salm sok eh suh, nul sarang bat go it jiyo ~you are being loved in your life. Ne jo geum han, shi jak dwen hananim eh sarang eun, uri eh man naml tong he, yeol meh rl met go, ~Through our meeting, God's love that has been from the beginning comes to bear fruits. Dang shin yi yi se sang eh jon je haneuro yin he, uri eh eol ma nan km,gi pm yi dwe neun ji... ~How great is our joy because of you in this world! Chorus: Dang shin eun, sarang bat gi wi han te oh nan saram ~You were born to be loved. Ji geum do gu sarang, bat go it ji yo... [2x] ~You are being loved now. [2x] Ji geum do g sarang, bat go it ji yo... ~You are being loved now♥ (Do you know,) you are born to be loved by (our God) 당신은 사랑받기위해 태어난 사람 Within your life, you've been receiving the love 당신의 삶속에서 그 사랑받고 있지요 You are born to be loved by (our God) 당신은 사랑받기위해 태어난 사람 Within your life, you've been receiving the love 당신의 삶속에서 ...

a.k.a (SAD) is a humorous holiday celebrated on February 14 (although some prefer the 13th or the 15th to get away from the commercialism associated with the 14th). It serves as an alternative to Valentine's Day for people who are single: that is, who are not involved in a romantic relationship. Some observers of SAD do so out of spite for Valentine's Day, as a Hallmark holiday, or for other reasons. On Singles Awareness Day, single people gather to celebrate or to commiserate in their single status. Some want to remind romantic couples that they don't need to be in a relationship to celebrate life. A common greeting on this day by its adherents is "Happy SAD!" The day is often used by less-friendly couples as a day to simply remind the singles they know about their current, uninvolved status. Some of the manifestations of the holiday can be regarded as examples of self-deprecating humor. I wouldn't want this day to know as SAD. It's rather quirky to c...

It's V day! Valentine's Day! It's nothing much of a special though since every day should be a day that express your love and concern for those around you, be it your partner, spouse, friends or parents. But today it's universal, and every where you will see couples exchanging glances of love, receiving and giving gifts. Quite like X'mas, haha... Well, many friends are attached since last year and some are getting married this year! So happy for them, but I am still waiting. I took leave, to have a date with my Beloved. Going to spend some time praying, playing my guitar, read the Bible. Hopefully, dinner with the singles is on today. Otherwise, so sad, I'd be soooooooo sianz!

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing With a broken heart that's still beating In the pain there is healing In your name I find meaning So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on I'm barely holdin' on to you The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead I still see your reflection inside of my eyes That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing With a broken heart that's still beating In the pain is there healing In your name I find meaning So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on I'm barely holdin' on to you I'm hanging on another...

Every year is the same for me. Going to my grandma's place for reunion on the Eve, 1st day family outing, 2nd day family gathering at my maternal aunt's place and 3rd day gather at friend's house if there is any. But this year, I felt a little more emotional. Felt so alone when every one has their own programs or own friends to go out with. Most of my friends are attached and the others, I am not too sure. I have a revelation today. The level or depth of a friendship depends on how much you allow others into your life and how much you want to be involved in the other person's life. Allowing others to be a part of your life and to be a part of others' life involves risk. There is no perfect person so there won't be a perfect friend. You have to be prepared to have both good times and bad times. There will be bound to have agreements and conflicts but that's one we learn from one another and gain life experiences. Though I know quite a number of people, but I ...

When things are going our way, praise comes naturally. But when the dishwasher breaks or the children are sick or the mechanic gives bad news, it’s much more difficult to give thanks. God understands how your emotions are built; He made them. He also knows the cure for a heart weighed down by concerns and irritations—praise. Some churches hold special services just for worship and thanksgiving. The usual order is set aside so the entire time can be spent in adoration of the Lord. Singing, prayer, and personal testimonies of God’s goodness are often key ingredients at such gatherings. The idea of a praise service isn’t new, though. In the days of King David, the Ark of the Covenant was about to be returned to Jerusalem after months in the house of Obed-Edom (1 Chron. 14-16). However, David had made a grievous mistake earlier and angered the Lord—He had decided to bring the ark to Jerusalem but failed to transport it properly. When someone touched the ark to steady it, that person died. ...

This was a letter written to me by a friend: May U always hv an angel by yr side Watching out 4 U in all e things U do Reminding U 2 keep believing in brighter days Finding ways 4 your wishes & dreams come true Giving U hope that is as certain as e sun May U always hv ♥, comfort & courage And may U hv an angel by yr side Someone there 2 catch U if U fall Encouraging yr dreams Inspiring yr happiness Holding yr hand & helping U thru it all In all of our days, our lives are changing Tears come along as well as smiles Along the roads U travel, May e miles be a thousand times more lovely than lonely May they give U gifts that never, ever end: Someone wonderful 2 ♥ & a dear friend in whom U confide May U hv rainbows after every storm May U hv hopes 2 keep you warm And may U always hv an angel by yr side.

Met up with my friend at Vivo to have dinner and watched 27 Dresses. It was pretty interesting though there was nothing new to the story line. A pretty light-hearted show for my heavy heart after a talk with a friend on MSN. I wanted to take NR6 home. I waited till 1145pm till I realised NR buses only operate on weekends!!!! Thank God, there was the last 100 bus to Serangoon. It took me an hour to reach and to realise that there were no more buses back home!! Urghhhhhhhh... I was contemplating to take cab or to walk, I chose the latter. I am a "Naturalist". (you will find out more if you have read the Purpose-Driven Life). I was praying to God, lifting up my heavy heart, my broken emotions, disappointment and hurt to Him. As I walked, I felt His love and assurance. Teared a little... I was praying for the singles, my mum, my leader, friends, etc. I was praying, binding and loosing what was needed to be. I just felt so touched by God's presence as I walked on. Finally, rea...

An abstract from someone's blog: "If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me." ....... Like Peter, i was asked by God 3 times, will i ever walk out on Him? When He had asked that, He reminded me of all those friends who left. Similar to those renewing their wedding vows, i repeated to God & myself that i will never walk out in Him. As i said that, my faith began to raise again & my hope is to encourage others not to give up as well. I have one life and one chance to make it count for something . . . I'm free to choose what that something is, and the something I've chosen is my faith. Now, my faith goes beyond theology and religion and requires considerable work and effort. My faith demands -- this is not optional -- my faith demands that I do whatever I can, wherever I am, whenever I can, for as long as I can with whatever I have to try to make a difference. (Jimmy Carter)

Dear Lord Jesus, Please bless all my friends in my life. Let not one be lost in the wilderness but let all come to You and experience You. Dear Lord Jesus, Please encourage those who needs encouragement. Let your love surround those who are broken-hearted. Dear Lord Jesus, You have told me to encourage a friend and if I didn't, please forgive me. I thank you for the person who encourage on my behalf. Dear Lord Jesus, Thank you for not allowing any one of your sheeps be lost or stolen, that You are our shepherd who watches over us unceasingly. Dear Lord Jesus, if I have made Korean shows the Lord of my life, I am sorry. Help me to exercise self-control and discipline. :) Dear Lord Jesus, Thank you for the special favor at work with my colleagues and boss. Dear Lord Jesus, Thank you for the "someone out there" when I needed. My heart is filled with gratitude beyond words. May I be the "someone out there'" as well for others. Dear Lord Jesus, Thank you for my b...

I had a mini prayer meet at my house just now with 2 of my cg sisters. We had a short 5 min worship, hmm I wonder if we made noise in heaven or it's a heavenly tune. I am tone deaf + another member that's a real beautiful noise that we made! I think it's good and we sang in the spirit for awhile and then I start to head start the prayer. I really asked God to take over the mini prayer meet, because I know I cannot do it with my own natural strength. Thank God, everything went well. First started by praying for one another, then on to the friends for tomorrow's 小年。 It was like a spiritual warfare when we prayed and can sense that Holy Spirit was leading the entire flow. Thank God!After prayer, we shared a little about the supernatural realm, about how real the forces of the devil and the power of God is. One of them was sharing how she stood strong when her husband left her and the kids due to his infidelity. It just occurred to me that when you have been through the dar...

This is my all time favorite "oldies". This is the one simple heart that can penetrate through my heart and soul connecting me to the One and Only - the Perfect. Better than the best. :> There is none like Him who knows my heart, my thoughts, my everything. My joy, laughters, joy, sorrows, sadness, heartaches, EVERY being of me. It just touches my heart-the unconditional, agape, love of God. Not meant to be a feminist. But this is an all women's worship team.