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An abstract from someone's blog: Miracle is definitely not something that come very often or naturally. Not trying to sound like a nutcase, but if it happens all the time, then we can't really call it a miracle isn't it. Call it works of nature, law of universe anything but extraordinary. I realise every time a miracle takes place, I am in some sort of a desperate situate. I can't do it alone anymore. When I need a job, got rejected for a position only to get another that pays twice as much. Despised and I got the highest marks in the group. Felt unwelcome and I got all the opportunities offered. Sometimes I don't understand how God works, but one thing I know, call on His name and miracles begin to light up your life.

Not just any kind of flu but stomach flu! I was alright when I reach office until 10+ when I start having the runs. I was hoping it to be just normal cramp but somehow, I suspected that I might be having stomach flu. I can take any kind of pain except for stomachache and headache. I can sleep the whole day just by having with one of these. I guess I wasn't already feeling from well since Friday. I had been having heavy spells since Friday evening and even for yesterday, I reached church at 945am! I was supposed to report for choir at 815am - 1.5hrs late! But it's good that I have half a day MC today, I was contemplating to take leave away from work so that I can have a day for myself and rest. I want to go on a trip soon. So many things I wanna do. Save, Travel, Missions, Fulfill BF, Study, Learn a skill. I was very blessed by last week's CG message, talking about the sacrifice of praise. What spoke to me most is Psalms 23 and the part about restoration of the soul. I think...

For some reasons, I don't know why but I think I was simply not paying attention to what was being said to me. I was pretty glad that there's a long weekend as I was clearing my leave. Now it has ended, and there's simply no chance to ignore or run away. Life has to go on and I have this burden to get over with things and done with it. There's going to be many days ahead and I really seriously want things to be very defined and clear. No guessing, no thinking, no assuming, NOTHING. Put a full stop to everything. I'd rather be slapped in the face and suffer for awhile than to be a wandering soul. I hate this kind of feeling. Detest will be the word. Whether I can handle the truth, it's for me to resolve. I like things to be clear so I know the next step to take. So let's put a stop and move on.

Yummy! Met up with my good friend for dinner and had Korean food again! So delicious but it's very much more spicy than the one I had at Novena Square 2 last week, quite expensive too lor! Later on went for shopping for awhile, hunting for bags again???? haha.... Took a bus and moved on to Max Brenna!!!!!!! Only been there once in my life with RZ and my sec sch+her bf (now husband) like 4 years back? Haiz.... So long ago.... Some pictures we took.... Interview for the up and coming April birthday boy... hehe...

Remaining Vertical With God 1 Peter 2:23 When they hurled their insults at Him, He did not retaliate; when He suffered, He made no threats. Instead, He entrusted Himself to Him who judges justly. Have you ever been wrongfully accused? Oh, the need to defend and justify becomes so great. "What will people think if they believe these things are true?" we reason. Imagine what Jesus thought as they hurled insults and threats upon Him. The God of the universe had visited planet earth only to be slandered and accused of blasphemy. Jesus could have done two things in response. He could have used His power to put the people in their place. He could have responded "horizontally." He could have fixed the problem right then. However, He chose to respond in a different way. He chose to "entrust Himself to Him who judges justly." It requires great faith to entrust ourselves to God in the midst of personal assault. However, if we can do this, we will d...

Rage is a shame based expression of anger . Rage is by definition abuse . Ragers react to strong emotions with rage. (i.e. feelings of fear, sadness, shame, inadequacy, guilt or loss convert to rage.) Ragers were typically shamed or punished by their caretakers for expressing emotion when they were young; i.e.: "Be a man and don't cry", "Nice girls don't get angry" or "I'll give you something to cry about". Raging gives the rager a feeling of power - offsetting their shame and feelings of inadequacy. Rage sets up a neurochemical reaction in the brain that can be addictive, producing what is known as rageaholism or ragaholics. What Rage Looks Like: Screaming, physical expressions of anger, violence or threats of violence, sulking, manipulation, emotional blackmail, silent smoldering, and anger used to punish. What Healthy Anger looks like: Healthy expression of anger involves confrontation of what makes you angry and a...

THANK GOD! I am so glad and happy to have resolved the misunderstanding with the member. Thank you for her understanding and thank God for her spiritual maturity. I am so glad my stress level can go down by a notch. Attended the i-Ming service today, it was fantastic. I liked the ending especially as there was a twist to it. i-Ming is a device which allows you to revisit your memories and Leonard, the inventor, kept revisiting to the time his wife had an affair with his good friend. He was filled with unforgiveness. While trying to improve the device which allows him to revisit history, he travelled through time when Jesus' was ministering as well as His crucification. But all these while as he is from the future, no one could see him. Even Jesus didn't acknowledge his presence, but the beauty of it was Jesus turned to him before ascending to heaven. It was a twist. It's so real to me. Often times, we thought that we are unnoticed, no one sees us and no one knows, but Jesu...

This blog actually answers my questions as to what happens to all the bulletins that we leave behind. I know ushers clear them, but we have so many thousands seats! After one Sunday service, I saw children (less than 10 years old) running around picking up the printed fliers and pamphlets the adults had discarded onto the floor. The children were running through all the seats, collecting up all the fliers, and depositing them at the ends of the aisles for the ushers to easily collect. The simple small acts by the children had a profound result on the work the ushers had to do. Is it so hard for adults to take their own unwanted fliers to the end of their own aisle as they leave? Such young children can teach we adults so much.

I realised that I haven't thank God for this Good Friday when He has saved us all from our darkness, pasts, weaknesses, sins, infirmities, delivered us and broken all curses over our life! So sorry for being preoccupied with what's going on and has happened. Therefore, being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost, which is give unto us. Bring to rememberance of the goodness and faithness of God in our lives - how He has carried us through till at this present moment; the times we thought we cannot overcome but we have come thus far. The friendships, favor, blessings, breakthroughs, etc that we have received as we continue to trust in Him.

I feel alot of pressure these days... spiritual attack? Perhaps..... I am beginning to doubt myself, beginning to question my mindset, beginning to want to give up even when I haven't tried. Yet, I don't want to give up just like this without even trying and fighting the battle. I just need to settle this weekend and really begin to pray for the direction for the coming months. Mentally I am drained, emotionally I am drained, physically still ok as I have always been a strong person, spiritually?? - I am lost as I am being challenged with my values and conviction about leadership, about building lives, etc. There are many areas that I have to work out. I have very good members and sometimes, I just feel that they have much more to teach me about than I have to give to them. How do I lead them from point A to point B - a higher level and closer to their calling? My leader told me if God has placed them under me, there must be a reason. There must be something that I can give or ...

Transition.... On Wednesday, my friend officially becomes my supervisor(to-be). Felt so weird to be sitting beside each other..... It was like a twinkle of an eye after my manager decided to move on to a new role in a new company. In fact, I know about this 2 weeks back or so. There was apprehension of what will lie ahead and how things will work out because different working style from my previous sup. Well, so far so good except for the talking part... haha... seems like we keep talking. Anyway used to do that with my previous sup too. I think there's alot of talking about - rumours, speculations, etc whatever you call that. My colleagues are so funny, cannot stand them! But I know they mean well and also waiting to watch something interesting to come out of this arrangement. Haiz! We are WORKING, please! Honestly, there's alot of uncertainties too on a personal level. I was just about to settle down and now, I am being tossed about again. Haiz.... What is this???? I don'...

The face I see everyday…the same expression It’s like how it was the first day Even when I get close to you without a reason I smile at your reaction.. I get grouchy and angry easily.. I act like a little kid.. As the time I spend with you grows My heart gets warmer.. I want to lean on you.. A little, I want to get close to you just a little bit A long, stay in a place close to me for a long time The face I see everyday…the same expression It’s like how it was the first day As the time I spend with you grows My heart gets warmer.. I want to lean on you.. A little, I want to get close to you just a little bit A long, stay in a place close to me for a long time Whenever I get weary, whenever I want to cry your face comes to mind I want to become your strength.. Though I’m stalling now My heart, my heart is looking forward to it..I have to be courageous Me, I want to show you what I feel.. to you A little, I want to get close to you just a little bit A long, stay in a place close t...

Many a times, when I tell myself, I want to spend time praying at a certain timing. I hardly get to achieve it. I am either having to do some house chores or distracted by the computer. I really should learn to discipline myself. On the way to work, I felt led by HS that I should pray half an hour in the spirit during the busiest time of my day. That is - on my way to work, lunch and home after work. Pst Cho prays more than 3 hrs a day, I shall pray for 1.5 hrs a day. Better than the promise that I have set to pray an hour a day which I haven't achieved for the past 2months - not every day anyway. I felt really recharged when I did that this morning. It's my first time to really concentrate while praying. Most of the times, I do pray on my journey to work. But it's more of a subconsicious thingy because my mind is always thinking through some stuff. My spirit man prays on his own, my mind operates by itself and physically, I sleep. haha.. Sounds complicated..... But this mo...

I was browsing through a church member's blog last night. Just happened to bump into his link in Guitar4Christ while searching for chords for the latest worship song - Spirit Fall. I was so touched. The love letters for someone he has yet to see, but so loving and sincere. Dropped a comment to encourage to be patient. Because this is the game that we are playing when it comes to our life partner, waiting for God's chosen one for each of us. I sense the anticipation and excitement, at the same time, the weariness of waiting. But he's young, he shouldn't be too anxious about it. It's good to see godly men like him to be so ready to take up the responsbility and commitment though. I found hope just by reading his letters. :> There are still mature men around in church after all. Oops....

Pst spoke servanthood today. My mind was just going to and fro, flipping through if I have the attitude of a servant. Honestly speaking, I am lacking in many ways. Servanthood should start from my earthly family, then to spiritual and lastly to the society - friends, colleagues, relatives. Just thinking, sometimes when I am told to do certain chores at home, I'd just be so unwilling because of physically tiredness, sometimes laziness and sometimes I just don't feel like doing anything. Many a times, I serve my family whenever I feel like it. Sleep to me is pretty important though I like to cook. Last Saturday, I woke up early and wanted to cook lunch. I did. I am praying and asking the Lord to help me have the right attitude in serving my own family. I guess I have been too spoilt by my mum who does everything for me when I was young. I grew up to be individualistic but definitely not selfish. I grew up doing things on my own if it's of my own choice. Did things independent...