@lly's Haven

Just had a call with someone I got to know online. And it makes me think there many who are consumed by their physical desires that they are not listening or just give in to their flesh. It's a kind of selfishness when you insist on having your way and making the other person uncomfortable or ignoring the other person's feeling. One thing I have learnt when I met a guy in taiwan, despite the fact that he is rather keen or has the need to release his desires, he didn't insist or force his will on me. Thank God for that! Probably the Almighty helped curb the fire within the guy. But the local guys here, there hasn't been one who knows how to respect me. Not sure for whatsoever reason, they have no manners in either treating me right or rejecting me in the right way. Not that I want to carry this disgusted perception of the guys here, but time and again, I have been disappointed and let down. When I think this is the most normal man I have met by far after a lon...

I had a tiff with my brother on Christmas day and hasn't been talking nor hugging him since. I guess maybe it's time to wean off from each other. We have been too close. Now that he has a girlfriend and possible future wife, he no longer belongs to me. So I guess it's time to really be emotionally independent. I am a little sad and lonely, still I am happy that my brother found his soulmate. However, I have become more resentful towards God. I don't expect Him to answer all my prayers but to help me fulfill 2 dreams. Have I focused too much on lamenting that I am not doing anything? After all these years, I am still back to square one, crying over that 2 dreams that I was once hopeful of and always think that i will have my chance or turn. Now I want to shed off those dreams that have made me miserable for too long and often make me forgetful of the many good things that have happened. 2014 has been a great year. I am thankful that I left my last job without ...