@lly's Haven

What's new? It's nothing new under the sun. The meet up was good but has much negative impact on my emotion. I really miss my own friend. At least he's my very own friend. Now I am left with none whom I grew up with and feel comfortable to share and be with. Feel so alone and also lonely... There's no place that I belong nor is there a place for me anywhere. All of sudden I just find it meaningless to be part of anything where I don't really have a sense of belonging. It's my perception of what acceptance is. I always find it important to accept the other party as who they're. I will try to keep anything negative abt tt person. Until opportunity arises to address the issue. Everyone has short-comings. But the worst place is the place of believers who likes to place a price tag when you're different from tt particular group. The 2 days of outburst about believers are years of suppression. I miss the ppl whom I call friends.

It's good to catch up with my good friend. But somehow the truth hasn't settled in and it still hurts and make me sad. I told him it's still upsetting because I've known him for more than a decade. But it was a good time spent. Dinner, drinks and a visit to the pub. Not much of an eye opener but still an exposure. Shared with him abt the dates I went out with.. And how disappointed I am. I am tired. My heart has bled till it's dried.... It's seems like there's no right person for me nor am I the right person to anyone else. But my good friend consoled me, the right one will come soon. I am not optimistic about it because I no longer has the energy to suffer a blow. He said I ain't ugly. Thanks, it does put a smile to my face, to have my good friend telling me that.