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Our last day in Jurong West St 91 I only had time to upload these pictures that I took on 4th December 2005. This is our last day in our church premise but also many things to do. It was water baptism for Terence and Vanessa, then it was birthday celebration for Issac and S.W. (if you know what this means, hehe.. mean)

Christmas The word for Christmas in late Old English is Cristes Maesse, the Mass of Christ, first found in 1038, and Cristes-messe, in 1131. Merry X'mas to all my friends out there, Christians and non-Christians! To both different groups because we celebrate this season with joy and exchanging of gifts for known or unknown origin of Christmas. This is the day that God has given His only Son Jesus Christ, so that also explains the reason why we are into the season of giving and exchanging. God exchanged His Son for our lives, so have exchange any gift to Him? It's ironic, isn't it? How some doesn't believe in Jesus Christ, yet they believed He was birth forth or believed there's such a day as Christmas on 25th December? ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Anyhow, I am glad most or all respect this day. And this has been a blessed season for me because I never expected to receive so many presents especially f...

But whoever keeps His word, truly the love of God is perfected in him. By this we know that we are in Him. 1 John 2:5 Is love really so simple as that? I guess so, with God. But why do I still struggle to receive, accept and to give love? What I once have, I lost it. To have it again, cost too much to part with it again. It will be double the pain. Jesus gave his life, only one life but he gave it to gain eternal life and to give all eternal life. Good for Him! I have one life, but I hold onto it too much. Bible says, what you hold onto so dearly, you will lose it. It's true. Sometimes you are so focused, that you forget to enjoy the things, people and environments around you. So there you go, life wasted to achieve 1 goal, be it fun, enjoyment, luxury, success, fame, honor or riches. When you could have gained friendships, love and life to the fullest. True friendships, love and 1 life that is full of life's riches. So back to the question - Are you running from love? True lov...

I am overwhelmed by tonight's news. Totally overwhelmed. More than what I can take. I am almost hysterical. Shocked, shocked and shocked! What can I say? Sigh.. 2 of my colleagues were sacked today. Month of December, 2 weeks before X'mas. 1 has a family to support and the other she's young. As much as I hate hypocrites, it is against the character not the person. I really like to have nice colleagues as I always had in my other jobs. Politics, yes but not within same department or colleagues as in peers. My female colleague is a nice person, giving and generous. And I believed that if she has not tried to bad-mouth and politick, we would have been quite good friends. She has the charm and the personality but too bad, not the character. Very wasted for a gal her age..... SIGH... is all I can say.. My head is still reeling with the news.... Told my friend I am watching a drama series, it's so unreal.. Totally which I never could have imagined to happen in my life.. I fee...

What time do you wake up in the morning? If possible, I will wake up as late as 12pm every day or earliest 10 or 11am. So what happens to those who wakes up at around 8 am or 9am on weekends? Between these timings to the timings that I wake up, that will be about 3 to 4 hours. What could I have done within these 4 hours? Maybe I could have spent time with God, maybe I could pack my room, maybe finished a whole book in the bible, quiet time perhaps, cook a lunch? Every minute counts in life, though the clock ticks by the second. 1 minute could mean many sentences of encouragement, of influence, of making a wise decision, etc. Don't know why I felt so philosophical this morning. But I found that the difference of when I was in Hong Kong and here in Singapore, the lifestyle is really very different. I guess over in HK I was work-driven, and when I went back to my hotel room, there's practically nothing for me to do. I don't bother to watch TV and my time was spent reading the ...

Finally, we are back on track after a month's break because of the bible study series - "Tabernacle". I played on my new guitar and boy, how my fingers hurt! I think I practiced too hard and now when I play for CG, my fingers can press at all. It was rather disasterous coz I couldn't really press the strings. But still, I want to thank God for His favor and presence. My CGL had to minister to some of the members at the end of the CG and I was left alone to lead!!! I haven't lead in a Praise & Worship for donkey years! I felt so awkward when having to do that for the 1st time in City Harvest Church! But I felt good, it was like I was really doing something for God. I thank you, Holy Spirit for Your presence and for the smooth flow of worship during the ministry. Without the presence of the Holy Spirit, ah yo... it'd have been disasterous! But God is good, He helped me when most of the times otherwise, I'd be tone deaf. How to lead??? In fact, I was real...

Sigh.. My boss has implemented and imposed a strict rule to delete and uninstall all MSN. Life is going to be boring or slow. In fact, I rarely chat except when colleagues msg me. That's all. I don't really chat, it's quite unfair. I need msn to unwind myself o at least that's my break time. Unlike some of my colleagues who take long breaks out of office to gossip/chit chat/discuss work, I am in the office most of the times unless there are errands to run. If I keep calling for sales, I am going to die of dryness!!! Oh God, please help me to get sign ups, I need another breakthrough in sales and in the department. Let Your glory be shown to all men through the successful training programs.

This week has been a week of warefare in the office. There is nothing much that happened except for the Spirit of Lies/Deceptions/Jezebel. Such a poisonous tongue the person has and a lousy attitude. Such an Anti-Christ but the prince of darkness will not prevail because we have the King of the universe in US! There is a breakthrough in the office, I am referring to the spiritual atmosphere. Thank you, Holy Spirit for the prompting and the arising in the spirit man. I have been under the oppression of the anti-christ for too long. I got frustrated and angry why should I be affected by that anti-climax atmostphere. Why should I be under the negative influence? It's ridiculous. Time for me to stop sleeping and arise and take control, I told myself. Wow, immediately I can feel the difference, a sense of freedom and liberty. Really thank God, for the awakening. As children of God, we should influence the atmostphere as we carry the presence of God. -------------------------------------...

Bert You scored 75% Organization, 40% abstract, and 64% extroverted! This test measured 3 variables. First, this test measured how organized you are. Some muppets like Cookie Monster make big messes, while others like Bert are quite anal about things being clean. Second, this test measured if you prefer a concrete or an abstract viewpoint. For the purposes of this test, concrete people are considered to gravitate more to mathematical and logical approaches , whereas abstract people are more the dreamers and artistic type. Third, this test measured if you are more of an introvert or an extrovert. By definition, an introvert concentrates more on herself and an extrovert focuses more on others. In this test an introvert was somebody that either tends to spend more time alone or thinks more about herself. You are very organized, both concrete and abstract, and both introverted and extroverted. Here is why are you Bert. You are both very organized. You almost always know where your be...

Finally I am back from Hong Kong on Wed but had a fever and on 2 days MC! It's a good rest I thought from work and everything. Good for me to catch my bible reading, thank You Lord! Have been having these gastric gases that causes me to burp whole day long and put me in a daze. But then, I still will not skip overnight prayer meeting. It's so important for me to attend OPM because I am personally not very good with praying, which in other words means, my communication with God has got into a tiny problem. Nothing serious though, I still pray in the spirit. I had my hair colored and cut in Hong Kong which costed me about 70+, generally considered reasonable consider spending $150+ in Singapore for that in a salon. I saved 50%. Sometimes, there are some people with negative remarks. I do hope that I will stop having negative remarks and some edifying words from some people. Any negative comments, you can keep it for yourself. I have had enough. I don't mind iron sharpening ir...

Your Working Style You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. When you are care, you care deeply, but are more likely to show your feeling by deeds rather than words. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to things or people you care about. You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values. You stick to your values with passionate conviction, but can be influenced by someone you care deeply about. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by quiet reserve. In everyday activities you are tolerant, open-mind, flexible, and adaptable. If one of your inner loyalties is threatened, though, you will not give and inch. You usually enjoy the present moment, and do not like to spoil it by rushing to get t...

Did this after talking to a friend. Wanting to know myself more though I know my identity is in Christ. Get to know yourself better Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior. Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship. The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and...

The Real You Here is the analysis: You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to lear...

Talking about crossing over and break forth/breakthrough, I still want to have my fair share of fun. Sit back and relax. Responsibilities is something I am still not ready to take upon my shoulders and something which I dislike. Not because I need to work or take efforts, but I find that once responsbilities is placed upon someone's shoulders, fingers are always pointing at him/her. People turn nasty, harsh and you wonder what happened with all the nice greetings, well-wishes. I used to have a giant within me, hungry to do more for God and so happy to have like-minded people around me. But all of a sudden, things changed and these people seemed to care more about the ministry than the people around them. I mean ministry is important, but I think relationship is equally important. Isn't it so? If ministry has taken over relationships, then I think I'd rather not take up the responsbilities of ministry. I do want the giant to awaken, but I need "Manesseh" to erase o...

I am going to Hong Kong on the 12 November 2005 for business trip and will be back on 16th November. Initially I had wanted to stay longer on the 16th and take a later flight. But I realised I'd be missing the last section of "The Tabernacle" and I don't want that to happen. I am thinking whether to extend my stay on the 12th Nov or should I just arrive on the 13th Nov. A few of my colleagues told me there's no point going to Hong Kong Disneyland because of some ethic group of people who has been spitting there. I am in a dilemma. I don't mind not extending since I can save $$ and I am not much of a shopper. I'd be there alone anyway. How I wish I will have a friend or 2 with me, at least I'd not be so bored. I pray that the hotel room will be cleansed, I won't want to fall into the emotional pits again when I came back from Kuala Lumpur. Met great people there and even went to CHC KL. A pity I forgot to bring my camera, if not I'd taken pictur...

I badly want my calling and badly want to fulfill it. But as the bible says, "Be faithful in little and more will be added unto you." I haven't really been able to love those around, those that God has placed around me. Colleagues, friends, people, etc. This is one of the simplest commandment but a very emotional one. It takes determination, effort, patience and capacity to LOVE. We all put on our masks. WHY? Afraid of offending others and losing their friendships? Or because of inferiority? Or insecurity.. afraid that others will be better than you? Sigh... Am I putting on a mask? To a certain extend I guess. You can be transparent but not naked. Of course, you can be yourself when you are before God, naked. Adam and Eve had such intimacy because they were "naked", unpretentious until they fell. Trying to hide themselves behind bushes. I really don't want to waste my life, trying to search for my calling when it is before me. Every day of my life is a stepp...

There is none I desire (wonder if it's true) There is none I look to There is none I can depend on There is none who can fill me There is none who loves me as You do There is none who knows me as I am Except for the Lord In His mercy and grace What will I do without Him? There is none who has desired There is none who has looked There is none who has depended I have yet to stretch out my hands for others I have yet to love others as myself I have yet to know others What have I done for those around me? In my abilities and strengths I have not done anything (yet) Who do I look to? Myself Who do I seek after? Myself Who do I depend on? Myself No wonder, I need more of the Lord. L-ove O-ways R-emember D-others

It was so shiok! I slept from 1230pm to 130pm at the comfy sofa in NutriHarvest. I didn't know I was that tired. I was only thinking of a short nap. I need a break from work, need a holiday, need sleep, need to pray, need to do almost everything necessary in life. NEED--- Never Ending Entertaining Desires. haha... Humans are like that... Rest more than they work.. well at least that's how most people live. Why can't we be a little more focused? Why don't we love God alittle more? Where's the spirit of Paul? Disciples of Christ shouldn't be that weak. Sigh... What has gone wrong, God? Are we too focused on our emotions, problems, etc? Maybe so... What the heck is wrong with us today? Too comfortable in life till we can't accept a little setback or emotional upheaval? Heck... We have to really spend time with God. Not just pray, but really fellowship. Sigh.. Fellowship... I missed fellowshipping with God. The last that I really fellowshipped with God was when ...

Your Personality Profile You are nurturing, kind, and lucky. Like mother nature, you want to help everyone. You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive. A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker. You are good natured and people enjoy your company. You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you. The World's Shortest Personality Test You Are 19 Years Old Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. What Age Do You Act?...

Oops, when my CGL knew about my nick on MSN, she was "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! This is the worldly view!!" haha... actually, I put that because I just can't be bothered with one of my colleagues anymore. So sick and tired of his tricks, his hypocrisy and lack of integrity. He's such a pathetic fellow and I am likewise. Allowing my mood to swing ever so often because of a MORON!And I am an idiot to be affected by him. URGH!!! I am feeling to lethargic! Spirit, mind and soul. TIRED is all I can say. But I have yet to make a decision to pick myself up, another idiocrisy of mine. Knowing and yet not doing. Like seeing the "pi sai" on the face and thinking it's a beautiful mole. (dun mean to be crude) haha... I am laughing at what I am writing... nonsensical.. I think I need to sleep. Where have I placed God all these while? Do I even have the right to choose where to place Him? He's supposed to be on the throne of my heart anyway. God, please forgive me and h...