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Prepare it with oil on a griddle; bring it well-mixed and present the grain offering broken in pieces as an aroma pleasing to the Lord. - Leviticus 6:21 There is a requirement to be blessed at a deeper spiritual level by God. Christ requires it of each of His servants. He required it of Paul when He struck him down on the Damascus Road. He required it of Joseph when he was left in the pit and then sold into slavery. He required it of Jacob when he left his homeland penniless and needy. He required it of most every major leader that He used significantly - brokenness. Brokenness cannot be achieved on your own. It is something God does Himself. We cannot determine that we are going to be broken, but we can refuse to become broken. When God begins this deeper work in our lives, we can kick and scream and refuse the process. We can manipulate and strive to stay on top, but this only delays His work. Pride and mammon are ruling strongholds of the workplace. Brokenness is considered a weak p...

I am... Primary: I Consistent Characteristics: Communicative, Friendly, Influential, Persuasive, Positive,Verbal, Affable, Charismatic, Confident, Generous,Optimistic, Participative, Poised, Promoter, Self-Promoting, Sympathetic, Trusting Summary Style: I Basic Tendencies: Fast-Paced, People-Oriented Greatest Strengths: Fun-Loving, Involve With Others, Enthusiastic, Emotional, Optimistic, Good Communicator Natural Limitations: Disorganized, Not Detail-Oriented, Unrealistic Communication: Positive, Inspiring, Persuasive Fears: Loss of Social Approval Love Language: Acceptance and Approval Under Pressure: Emotional Attack(But may Avoid Public Confrontation) Decisiong Making: Impulsive, Whether It "Feel" Right Greatest Needs: Fun Activities, Social Recognition, Freedom from details Secondary: C Consistent Characteristics: Accurate, Careful, Compliant, Logical, Perfectionist,Precise, Systematic, Adaptable, Cautious, Conservative,Conventional, Disciplined, Open-Minded, Ov...

Questions to ponder: 1. Have the past experiences made you more critical? 2. Have knowledge made you puffed up that you're no longer humanly relatable? 3. Have the "weeds" of the earth robbed you of your joy that belongs to you? 4. Have you been blinded by what you thought was what you need but it turned out it's never meant to fulfil any part of your life? ----------------------------------------------------- Be it natural or spiritual life that we live, we tend to make the same mistakes of becoming either less trusting or more flaky. I guess life is amoral as long as you have the right values, attitudes and mindset. Yet how do you consider your values, attitudes and mindset are right in the sight of the people or in the society? To some, as long as they don't harm others, they are living right, be it taking drugs or heavily overdosed with alcohol. Never mind if they are vulgar. There are some, as long as their family members can benefit from what they are doing,...

My temper has changed drastically after Emerge. Indeed, God's presence was tangible and I was very ministered by His love. On Friday night, when I went in late after work, I felt emotional and wanted to cry. And I thought to myself, "Why am I so emotional?!?" It's ridiculous because praise and worship was over. When Pastors after Pastors shared how the youth has impacted their campuses and schools and friends, my tears just flowed down. Perhaps I felt I have not lived up to God's standards, not only that I felt "small" because the cares of this world has somehow robbed my joy. Yet it's a choice and a decision I have to make on my part to allow God's words to change me or to allow the cares of this world to affect me. I chose the latter. But I want to trust God to turn my heart around and to come before Him without any guilt or shame that I have let Him down. I always have to remind myself that I am not Holy Spririt nor am I an angel. I need to re...

1 Peter 5 v6 - So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and in his good time he will honor you. v7 - Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about what happens to you. (New Living Translation) Romans 15 v13 - So I pray that God, who gives you hope, will keep you happy and full of peace as you believe in him. May you overflow with hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.

Reading what I wrote on the previous blog, I thought I sounded PESSIMISTIC. Yucks! I don't think I am that inferior though I must admit I am very shy when comes to meeting new people. I tend to be very conscious and takes time to really relex and be myself. Yesterday was the birthday of a very dear brother and today is my younger brother's birthday. 23rd May is a special day not only for my friend but also my water baptism since when? hm... 1998 I guess, long time ago! Well I am still young, at least in the sight of my God.

Once I thought that love was meant for Anyone else but me Once I thought that no one knew the Way Now that only goes to show how wrong we all can be Cause now it seems He loves me more each day Chorus: His love is warmer than the warmest sunshine Softer than a sigh His love is deeper than the deepest ocean Wider than the sky His love is brighter than the brightest star That shines every night above And there is nothing in this world that can Ever change His love Something happened to my heart The day that I met Him Something that I never felt before And that something is that He has buried all my sins And everyday I know He loves me more ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ My favorite song when I was young. Childlike faith brings forth faith and joy but a faith that has stagnated and been contaminated brings forth memories. I will rather have encounters and experiences than to have memories. It's so sad when your encounter with God has sto...

Psalms 65 v9-You visit the earth and water it, You greatly enrich it; The river of God is full of water; You provide their grain, For so You have prepared it. v10-You water its ridges abundantly, You settle its furrows; You make it soft with showers, You bless its growth. God will leave us abundant blessings wherever He goes. Blessings = Provisions ->However, it is dependent on the choices we make. Hebrews 10:23 Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering , for He who promised is faithful. 1. Let Us -making a strong decision immediately Hebrews 3:1 Therefore, holy brethren, partakers of the heavenly calling, consider the Apostle and High Priest of our confession, Christ Jesus, -when we make the right confession / prayer, Jesus will begin to be the Priest over our lives. The ability to pray and confession is very important! 2. Hold fast Hebrews 4:14 Seeing then that we have a great High Priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fa...

I stand alone in a corner of the earth I stand alone in the face of dissatisfaction I stand alone in the roads of wilderness Then You came along To show Your love Now You hold my hands and I stand with You Your face shining down on me Chorus: There is none like You Your love is true There is none like You Your love is great Now I stand with You ------------------------------------------------------- As I woke up this morning, lying on my bed, a melody came to my mind.... then the words... and that's how the song above was created.

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Been out most part of the day. Back to office to collect my charger coz my HP went flat, did my hair, went gym and then dinner with friends. Came home around 10pm... I have been out for almost 11 hours! Talking about doing my hair, the hairstylist is a rather interesting guy (cute). This is the 2nd time that he is helping me do my hair and we had a good chat. And he has a unique way of asking for numbers...... He may be resigning and he gave me his number and then asked me to give him a missed call. hmm.... well I hope I got his number wrong so that he won't have mind. He was washing the color off my hair at the basin so I can't hear my phone connect to the other side. Anyway, if God has placed this new soul in my life, there is a purpose. Most importantly he's not working on Sundays! I pray that his schedule will remain as it is so that when the opportunity arises, I can invite him for service. :> hehe.... A good thing he's also a Malaysian coz there's quite a n...

Thus, yet again, I can feel my emotions going haywire. Regrets? Depression? Loneliness? Insecurity? All these seems to be coming back to me now. Just when you want to serve God more fervently, just when you decide to live a life of passion, just when you want to renew your mind and decide to spend more time in His word and standing upon the truth..... all of a sudden....... So what did Paul says? Take up the armour, stand firm with faith. Not to move and charge but to just STAND firm. I guess, that's to say not to waver. I feel like I am walking on still waters and then sinking amidst the storm. Why ME? WHY? sigh........... I want to be with people who has the passion of Christ, I want to be with people who has the zoe life of God. I have seen and met a few but we were never friends, just acquaintances. I need to have a mentor who challenges and disciples me. Not that my CGL is not, but it's so different. It's just like Elkman & Kong. It's not about leadership autho...

My first experience of the actual closing.... It's like fighting a battle, I should have dated all the invoices in May when I received them late April. Now I have to key in every single invoices I have received for the past week and it doesn't help to have additional holiday. But I do appreciate the break, it has been rather stressful for me because of my lack of experience and detailedness. Most of my friends will know that I am a "sotong", and now I've got myself back into mess again. I miss my ex-colleagues and ex-boss who's a dear brother to me. In fact, he taught me confidence and communication skills. But I had not perservered on because I really can't bring in the sales or people to attend the training. I really like the godly working environment and the many mentors who are there. I pray that I will have a mentor this year whom I can learn from, be discipled in every areas such as communication, mindset, administrative skills, etc. Ok that's be...

God will make a way, where there seems to be no way. With Love and Strength for each new day, He will make a way, He will make a way. John Bevere: HE looks for those who are diligent in spirit, who will seek and pursue, even if it takes tenacious persistence . Is prayer a monologue or dialogue? This is a question I need to ask myself. Monologue or dialogue? I think mine is a monologue prayer and guess who's talking most of the time? ME! And why is it always me? Coz I don't have the energy to stay awake and wait upon the Lord's voice to speak to me. So the consequence? Needless to say, roadway in the wilderness. What John Bevere said challenges me and I do hope that I can spend time to wait upon God's presence and His voice. Adam has sacrificed his personal walk with God through sin, yet through Enoch (Adam's great, great, great .... grandson; whichever generation is that) walked personally with God, side by side. He overcome the hurdle through his passion to pursu...

Max D ewey Truman Maya Old Jack Shorty Shadow Buck My Heroes..... The Dogs who Risked Their Lives for Survival..... In the hope of waiting for their master's Return -- Jerry..... Their Unity is one that we should learn from: Looking out for one another and protecting one another... Sacrificing Oneself for the safety of the rest Sharing what they have despite of their lack and personal needs Perserverance - believing that as long as they are together, they will see the return of their Master

Trouble often brings depression. We pity ourselves. We ask, "Why me, Lord?" Kids are especially prone to pity parties. So are adults. Psalm 43:5 gives us a solution. "Why are you in despair, O my soul? And why are you disturbed within me? Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him, the help of my countenance, and my God." First, being disturbed, getting down, and being troubled are real experiences. We should never put down people who go through such times of depression. Second, we should recognize God is the answer to our troubles and depression. We should not look at ourselves and engage in self-pity. Instead, we should hope in God. Third, the hope mentioned in the Psalm is not some vague euphoric feeling about the future. We have this nebulous hope when we hope tomorrow will go well. Rather, the hope mentioned here is a gift of the Holy Spirit. It is a solid foundation upon which to build our present lives. Fourth, since hope is a gift from God, it must be used....

My first election ever in my life but yet I am not excited about it. I would when I was young, curious why the adults were so excited, the excitement of voting was in the air when I was in Primary School. I grew up thinking that GE is a grand affair but now, it's not such a grand affair after all. It's about competition, about power and the political status. So what's the important decision that I have to make? PAP vs WP I don't even know who they are. Yeah, I am ignorant, living in a world of my own. I am never a person who bothers about other people's business, unless they want me to. Not a very good attitude and mindset, I know. Who should I support? What are the repercussions if WP wins? And how will the plans and promises impact and influence the current lifestyle? Will there be an upheaval of political unrest? Nah, I am making too big a hoo-ha from this. Things may not be that complicated. I just need the wisdom to make the right decision. --------------------...

I am frustrated with work and myself. Too much frustrations that I can feel the anger arising in me. Bottled up all my unhappiness -- that's me. I just keep quiet till I can't any longer. My supervisor is picking on my work, she's overly detailed for me to handle. Good thing because it's training season. Bad thing, I am tired and hoping that after I leave the office, there will not be any careless mistakes that she will spot. It's never my intention to be careless, I try to check through but sometimes, I don't know if I really can't see or the devil is using my weakness to attack me in my career. It's a vicious cycle that I want to get away with. Thank God for the faith message last CG. I pray I will start my day with faith, favor, wisdom and grace. I want to be serious and I want to work with faith, live with faith, speak with faith and wisdom, clarity of mind so that I know what I am doing and remember what I am supposed to do. Psalms 5:3 Listen to my...

It was such great fun and joy to know so many people and to make like-minded friends from church. I have not felt such excitement and joy after I start work. As a working adult or even part-time student for 3 yrs, it was school, work, home, ministry, CG and church. Nothing more than that. But now, I feel I am living on earth with many others around, not in a cage surrounded by same old familiar faces. It feels so good to make new friends, like-minded and you know that most of these people may in one way or another be a form of encouragement. They are people who loves God but of course that's majority. After all, we are still make of the flesh, imperfect but moving onto perfection. Really thank God for the opportunity to know more people within the church. That means more support also. Here are some pictures:

Colossians 3 v2-Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. v3-For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. v8-But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. v9-Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices v12-Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. v13-Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Grace and Mercy and more Grace and Mercy.... Sigh....Lord I pray that I have the ability to release the anxiety and frustrations to you. I need a breakthrough in my career and having more favor than ever. I pray for supernatural wisdom when dealing with people. Give me words to speak and a heart that unde...