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My Hope - bring in all the lost. This sat we will be doing My Hope and so far we don't really have many friends confirmed. It just makes me start to think. What has gone wrong? Is it the land, the people, the social make-up of Singapore or people just doesn't realised that need God? And why doesn't one realise that they need God? Only 1 thing I can think of: They haven't seen/experienced real love from people around them. So does it mean that we haven't done our part to shine yet to our colleagues, to our friends, relatives or family members? How much done is considered impacting or influencing someone? I shall continue with part 2.

Nope. It's not a new series of Gotcha. It's the inaugural candid shot my cg has taken while dinner on the 26th Nov 08, Wednesday.

- Jason Mraz Lyrics

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Since I was away for the weekend due to beloved Stella's wedding, I told myself I need to clean up my bedroom and living room. So after My Hope briefing at JW, I shared a cab with Winnie back home. Haiz..... When I stepped into the house, I was wondering why is there a herbal smell? I asked my dad what did he do....... And I saw him in the kitchen with a medium-sized glass (impt info), and I asked him what is he drinking. He paused for awhile and finally said liquor. That explains why he was hesitant to reply me, he knows that I HATE him drinking. Why? There's a history which I shan't go into it. It was his 3rd glass (so the size of the glass will tell you how much XO he has been drinking) and I wonder if it's the truth coz he hesitated to reply me as well. Anyway, I told him to stop because he has no self-control. I told him he's an alcoholic because once he starts drinking, he doesn't know how to control. I am speaking the truth and I am not sorry if it hurts....

There was no videoman/photographer to help shoot the chronicle of Stella's makeup process. How sad! Had to use a HP which can only record 30s per shoot! Wa liew!!! If only my Sony Ericsson K800 is alive. Haiz.... I gave up after 3 videos, no point. I had a free deal from the makeup artist to help me stick on my fake lashes. I think this is the 2nd time I had fake lashes on. Hmmm, it looks extremely fake because of the length. Anyway, it does makes a difference to have it on. After the makeup and all, Stella put on one of her gowns - RED - and posed for a few shoots. We explored different angles to capture the best moments. Then we went on to her wedding gown. Guess what! I can't zip it up! We were so stressed up. Tried for a good 10min. Then I said, "OK! Let's calm down. Think... think.. think..." Stella was getting panicky as well. Of course, she's the bride! How not to have her wedding gown on when it's her big day, once in a life time! There's no re...

It has been quite a hectic week. Mon and Tue was fine, nothing much. Wed, was our cg dinner outing. We wanted to have steamboat but with the little turnout of people, those who reached had to hunt for food. And we did a good 45min hunting for a place before we finally settled down for Pizza Hut! We had a good time of sharing - talks and food. I was trying to pose for a photo, to only find out later it was video! Alamak, it was some stupid pose and now caught on video. I probably will do some editing because some private conversations was recorded along with that dumb look. Thu, met up with an old friend for dinner @ Island Cafe. The food is really very average, I don't think I will go back again with to pay restaurant price for Asian food when I can get at hawker for less than 10 bucks. Did last min shopping for my friend, Stella's wedding on Sat. Bought a silver skirt, pretty nice. Fri, met Stella for mani and pedi. She wanted to go to Bishan, I called her last nite to tell he...

It has been a great 5 days of conference with performances, talks and workshops; though I didn't get to attend any of the workshops. The speakers are fantastic bringing words of revelation/faith/transformation. Stepping out into the world as the good seeds and changing/transforming the tares through the caring system. It's amazing how one can make a difference and bring hope into the lives of many. Last night was the grand finale where Liu Geng Hong and JJ Lin came to perform and share a little of what they are doing. Little wonder why JJ is so popular among the young gals, he has such a baby face and when he smiles, it sends electrifying signal. haha... Very boyish and charismatic indeed. Liu Geng Hong's Video Clip JJ's Video Clip Pst Ulf has brought in a powerful message of walking with the Holy Spirit and setting yourself up in the culture with Holy Spirit because He lives in us. He is in us, not far, not out, not someone, but in us. Pst Phil gave power prophecies an...

I was doing some stuff in the night. It was quite a waste of time because of the "tortise" speed. Don't know why, but I just felt prompted to visit Joyce Meyer's website which I haven't been doing so for at least 2 months or longer. I went to the usual magazine page which no longer has HTML version so it took a little bit of time to download so I lost interest as well. There in the homepage, I saw this radio broadcast on "A Patient Attitude". So I thought might as well listen to something that feed the soul and listen to some other music. So while doing my stuff, the radion broadcast was sort of like a background music to keep me entertained. Blah, blah, blah.... then I heard "this is not my main message for today." So I switched off my listen ears. Blah, blah, blah.... PATIENCE IS A CHOICE. YOU CHOOSE TO BE PATIENT. Wa liew, I got a shock all of a sudden. This supposedly background "music" became so loud it caught my attention. I jus...

It's X'mas season again. I have yet to go down to Orchard Road but I supposed the roads should be donned with decorations to bring out the seasons mood. Need a breakthrough in my finances. It's a season of giving and sharing. I want to be a blessor instead of being a blessee. Of course, I love to receive gifts but I will want to be able to bless those who around me. It's so amazing. It's just a Xmas tree but still, it excites me. I really like Xmas tree because usually it's tall, strong and seems so secure. The way the branches spread out seems to be protective, like arms wrapping around one another. When I was younger, I really was excited about Xmas. But now, it just reminds me of how time flies. Clock is ticking faster and faster each year, quite scary at times. Still, it's a joyous occasion to celebrate for because it's the day for the gift of salvation to be given upon all men.

On Wed, I fasted and prayed together with a colleague. We were just sharing and prayed for one another. It's so wonderful to have someone like-minded to pray with. It has been a long time whom I have someone to pray together with. I mean I have the cg and members to pray during cg or service. But it's really different to have someone in your daily life to stand in the gap for one another, hand in hand. It felt a little awkward as we are still quite new to one another and it's like praying in the office at a hidden corner which is slightly exposed to the surrounding. We didn't know where to start from or how to start with our session. But my colleague, being the leader, started to share about what she read from "The Praying Woman" and we started to sure bits of our lives. And then move on to the areas we want to pray for one another. Thank God, somehow He led us naturally to a time of prayer. At the en d of the session which lasted about an hour, my colleague...

Though I am trying to save for my studies, on Sunday, I still went ahead to pledge the amount slightly higher than before instead of slashing my giving my 50%. Hmmm, by God's grace, He has to help me fulfill. Went for prayer meet since Tue. It was great... I cried on Thu, touched by the love and assurance of the Lord. My colleague joined me on Wed, it's so great that she has been encouraged by God and she saw a vision. Wanna fast with her and pray together but...... i forgot I got a farewell lunch!!!!! Ah yo, I feel apologetic towards her because she's really going through a tough time with her family. Next week, I promise... Keep my fingers crossed.... On Wed night, I met up with 2 friends for blood donation at NUH for an 11-year old girl who has just had bone marrow transplant and suffering from internal bleeding. She needs A+ platelet but O+ blood can still save her. GO IF YOU CAN! Ironically, these 2 friends met each other on forum and guess what? One is my SOT classmat...

Yeah, God granted my wish and this week is another week of soaking in His presence in the corporate anointing. I overslept yesterday morning and I prayed last night that HS will wake me up today. He did.... Though it was still dark, but I really like to be in corporate anointing. Its very different from praying alone at home, atmosphere is different. I invited one of my colleagues to join me tomorrow at Outram since that's the nearest to her house and it's not too difficult to get there from my house and to office after that.0 First time going to Kreta Ayer for morning prayer, I hope that the presence of God is as strong as Singpost or even better.. :>

Got the letter of offer from CQU, I am hoping that I will get one from my alma mater though. Is it a good time to set off next year? I am really counting the costs. I do hope that God will somehow help to sponsor me once more for my studies like how He did for SOT and my degree. Only that this time, I really want to go over to Australia. Things may not be as I want it to be when I am over there, at least, I want to look back when I get older and know that I have taken some kind of risk for what I want to do in my life. Not sitting back, still sheltered and regretting for not taking the risk for what I want in my life. A&B is next week. I did my calculations on Sat nite and found that the realistic amount I can give is slashed by at least 50%. The spiritual amount has not been confirmed yet. To be honest, if I have the kind of money, I will definitely give whatever I can. Yet, I also know that faith is believing in the unseen. Blind faith is being presumptous, and that's unpleas...

I have submitted my application on 14th and all other documentations yesterday. Pending for review of my application now, but I am sure there will be a letter of acceptance or offer. Though scholarship may be for students with excellent results, I have decided to go ahead to apply as well. Not so soon though, as I will need to attach the Letter of Offer with the form. Been thinking of ways how I can raise $$, an idea got through me this morning. Sell all my textbooks I did for my degree. Hmmmm, I love keeping my books. Really, anything that belongs to me, I will keep it. Not only to sell textbooks but also, CDs and my other Christian literatures - like a warehouse sales thingy? In the midst of A&B, I do not wish to shortchange God because of my intention to continue my studies. Humans proposes, God disposes. But anyhow, I have decided to want to go ahead with my plan. I don't want this lamentation to go on into my 40s because of my procrastination and fear of taking a loan. Hec...