心好痛
好痛，好痛，好痛。。。。
很空，很空，很空。。。。
渺小的一个希望，愿望与渴望
卑职的梦想，一生所求
所为的不放弃，数年来都没实现
心已不能承受外来的压力与内心的挣扎。
脆脶的心已累了。。。
很空，很空，很空。。。。
渺小的一个希望，愿望与渴望
卑职的梦想，一生所求
所为的不放弃，数年来都没实现
心已不能承受外来的压力与内心的挣扎。
脆脶的心已累了。。。
Mixed Emotions
Emotional? Disappointment? Resentment? A heavy heart. This is a year of good news for many of my single friends even celebrities who were single for a long time. Met up with a friend whom I hardly met since Covid. Today we met up and she introduced her boyfriend. Happy for her though I was surprised. The next bomb was she is getting married in November. Definitely happy for her, but I felt this extreme loneliness and again, likes an unwanted or neglected child. I admit that I am not fervent in praying in this area of my life nor any areas of my life. Except an occasionally whisper to express how I feel, my concerns about work or my mum. Is my miracle on my way or am I damned to singlehood? Am I truly enjoying my freedom or am I just trying to survive through. There is a sense of deep sadness but there are no tears. 1I once experienced in what I thought was a miracle, like finally, God You remember me. I was truly happy and blissful but I probably blew everything away in the m...
