Going Away

Finally, I am going to the USA. But this trip burnt a big hole in my poor pocket, however, I will not stay poor forever. I have the power to get wealth. I need to have this end-time anointing to get wealth before Jesus returns.

I was impressed in my heart to go Mission trips once every year and I really hope to do that. I have been procrastinating since 7 years ago, nothing has been done. Often distracted by my desire to travel and see more of the world, my monies are spent on leisure and enjoyment.

I can't remember if it's my CGL or someone said, give your way out of debt. I truly want to believe it, therefore, I give to I-Care, Sri Lanka, CHCSA and tithe and also blessed a Filipino pst recently. It so happened that I have this amount in my purse, so I think it's really God. I don't think He will leave me starving when I honor His servant.

I was so stressed up planning for my trip, with the late nights, it has recently taken a toll in my energy level. Even now, I am not too sure if I have planned well and I pray and I pray that there will not be any hiccups. Everything was booked online and though I have the confirmation coupons, anything can happen since there's no personal communication.

I also pray that, just as God canceled a person's debt of over 100K, I hope that somehow, some of the costs for this trip will be sponsored by Him miraculously too. So my bro will have extra during his stay in Canada for his exchange program, and for myself not too chalk up too much CC bills.

Anyhow, I want to have a blessed trip to get away.

I have been pretty lost at work, somehow lost the motivation in a way. It's like I am a little stagnant with where I am. I have been doing quite well so far, but recently, just find myself slacking away and losing the motivation to "cheong".

I'd definitely love to have a break, but not for a long term.

Is it time to move forward? Should I be presumptuous towards God's plan for my life? Definitely not, just that I felt like I am in a desert at this moment in time. Haven't felt this way for a long time as I am pretty much happy with where I am, enjoying what I am doing with good and understanding colleague. I am not all perfect, though I do hope that I can excel in whatever I do.

Pretty frustrating when I can't do well, and feel like I am a black sheep. It upsets me much when I can't perform or do as well as I want to. Haizzzzzzzzzzz

What is the thing that I can excel in? The thing I can do best?

Popular posts from this blog

Mixed Emotions

Emotional? Disappointment? Resentment? A heavy heart. This is a year of good news for many of my single friends even celebrities who were single for a long time. Met up with a friend whom I hardly met since Covid. Today we met up and she introduced her boyfriend. Happy for her though I was surprised. The next bomb was she is getting married in November. Definitely happy for her, but I felt this extreme loneliness and again, likes an unwanted or neglected child. I admit that I am not fervent in praying in this area of my life nor any areas of my life. Except an occasionally whisper to express how I feel, my concerns about work or my mum. Is my miracle on my way or am I damned to singlehood? Am I truly enjoying my freedom or am I just trying to survive through. There is a sense of deep sadness but there are no tears. 1I once experienced in what I thought was a miracle, like finally, God You remember me. I was truly happy and blissful but I probably blew everything away in the m...
Read more

Update for Q1 2018

It has been a journey since beginning of this year. In fact, I thank God for the healing sessions end of 2017 before Sep. I have been going for healing sessions with cornerstone and have been greatly ministered to. Release of the pressures and stress of life since my youth when I had to near all the brunt of my father and take up the responsibilities of my mum's inability to be a housewife. The loneliness and rejection that I had to go through during the last trimester of my mum's pregnancy while staying with my god grandma. It was a great relief and deliverance and reassurance of His unconditional love for me. He will never leave me nor forsake me. Since then I felt so much lighter about myself and about life. The oppression and your was broken off from me. Now I felt that things are progressing. I started to join a ministry - Greeters - and have been involved for the past 2 weeks. My first start was back at Jurong west. For the past month, quite unbelievably, I ha...
Read more

27th Jan: Holocaust Memorial Day

Image
Source: http://www.israelnewsagency.com/yadvashemholocaustisraelnew88480313.html Source:photos/images/Pol-jew2.jpg Sunday marks the day for International Holocaust Memorial Day. Personally having visited the Holocause Museum (Yad Vashem) in Israel, it is definitely the saddest and darkest period for the Jews. Anti-semitism is indeed a scary belief and practice which is demonic, that can only explain the degree of cruelty that no mankind can ever imagine. Who would tear apart an infant who is less than a year old? Who exterminate an entire nation of Jews? Why is that only the chosen nation suffers such violence? This is no work of the human mind and act except for the devil. May Israel be greatly blessed and be a light that shines forth so brightly. They have proved themselves to arise and soar above the darkest history. I guess probably because their experience with Holocaust, they are able to better protect themselves, having excellent security measures and military advancements. G...
Read more