@lly's Haven

Loneliness can be a scary thing... I probably don't have many close friends to start with, not many shoulders I trust and lean on. The only female close friend I have is a non Christian and married. The other close friend I have is a male and married. Now it's gotten complicated because he's legally married but not customary. Nevertheless, I know it's not right. Sadly, I have friends in church but none I can really share and talk to. Seem like Christians have more burden to carry than non-Christians. I don't want to be another baggage to anyone. In fact, more than often, I find myself even more lonely in church than out of church. Sad but it's the truth. Family problems can drive me to a corner. I don't receive love from my own family, I don't know how to receive love from anywhere else. I also don't trust and believe that others will love me. To me, love is a fickle commodity. It can be here and it can disappear. It's not trust...

作 曲：奧斯卡 填詞：馬嵩惟 編曲：奧斯卡 我說多傷人的話　鬧夠了嗎 你終於不再回答 藏在你溫柔底下　 最深的傷 疤 原來什麼話　 傻 總是退讓的你裝聾作啞為我擔心受怕 卻在你最最需要我的時候我還說等一下 請別走　 心痛我 我才學懂得 你的守候　 我狠狠劃破 那些錯我　 用生命來救 愛沒走　 你包容我再度揮霍  你能不能再次看看我  別無所求只要 你回頭  別無所求只要你回頭　喔　~  雨又下的那麼大　天黑了嗎 貪黑的你回去哪 我看不見你掙扎　 忽略你說話 愛才漸漸 平凡 我一個人回家那張沙發原來有這麼大 確定你以後想笑的思念　 我都是沒辦法 請別走　 後悔的最笨的是我 你 的脆弱　 我不斷錯過 沒發現你　 你比我寂寞 愛沒走　 失去你　我丟了所有 從今以後　 不死心的我 牽起你的手　重新愛過 牽 起你的手　重新愛過　 重新愛過

I heard, that your settled down. That you, found a girl and your married now. I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you. Old friend, why are you so shy? It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie. I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited. But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it. I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded, That for me, it isn't over. Nevermind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best, for you too. Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:- "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead" Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah. You'd know, how the time flies. Only yesterday, was the time of our lives. We were born and raised in a summery haze. Bound by the surprise of our glory days. Adele Someone Like You lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/adele-someone-li...

希望: 可以不理知　　  可以自私 為所欲為 可以把時間到專 敢敢把愛情搶回來, 即使已婚

Why have I become who I am today? Pastors will say, " You have a choice who you want to become." I will say, "I am up to my limits, and pushed far beyond what I can bear. There's no love, no concern, no positive words, nothing. There's nowhere to replenish the lack I have within my emotions. I need to defend myself." I do not like the present self, but I am to my wits' end. Nothing I do is ever enough, and everything is about money. Why don't I pay rent then and pretend to be strangers? I will be happy to be treated like a stranger and stop bothering me. In fact, they should think why have I treated them the way I did.

沉重的心，悲伤的心，无可奈何 这么脆弱的心，快要爆炸了。 神啊，救救我吧！

祢仰臉保守祢所愛的，祢護庇永遠不離不棄； 祢將我從淤泥裡捧起，放我在祢的手心。 我憑著信心領取，祢豐盛的應許。 世界也不能奪去，神美好的旨意。 我憑著信心領取，祢恩典永不止息。 看見美好應許成就，榮耀全都歸於祢。 我等候主我相信，祢愛我永不放棄。 世界也不能奪去，神美好的旨意。 我等候主我相信，祢旨意高過我的。 看見美好應許成就，我全心全意敬拜祢。

當我悲傷難挨 訴不盡最深的悲哀 親愛主 哦 我的主 懇求你傾听我的心 當我希望滿怀 道不出最美的期待 親愛主 哦 我的主 求你傾听我的心 求你聆听我每一個心跳 那是我最虔誠最渴慕的祈禱 求你聆听我每一個心跳 告訴我你什么都明了

As little children We would dream of Christmas morn Of all the gifts and toys We knew we'd find But we never realized A baby born one blessed night Gave us the greatest gift of our lives We were the reason That He gave His life We were the reason That He suffered and died To a world that was lost He gave all He could give To show us the reason to live As the years went by We learned more about gifts The giving of ourselves And what that means On a dark and cloudy day A man hung crying in the rain All because of love, all because of love I've finally found the reason for living It's in giving every part of my heart to Him In all that I do every word that I say I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him He is my reason to live

unanswered questions I look but nothing here this searching of what I am becoming isnt clear but You never give me up all my failures and all the mess I make can never separate me from the love You give Your plan has no mistakes I hear Your voice, and thats enough for me to rise again I will rejoice, in perfect strength I gain even through the storms and crashing waves the goodness of my God will keep me safe so Im taking steps on the water for Your hand is holding me every move I make will testify Your miracles that none can deny so Im taking steps on the water I no longer am afraid Youre with me all my failures and all the mess I make can never separate me from the love You give Your plan has no mistakes I hear Your voice, and thats enough for me to rise again I will rejoice, in perfect strength I gain even through the storms and crashing waves the goodness of my God will keep me safe so Im taking steps on the water for Your hand is holding me every m...